Thanks guys for some good bits of advice.
I do tend to overcommit and be passionate (some would say obsessed) to anything I get involved with.
The problem is not following a losing team.
I started following North Sydney Bears with my father and grandfather before they were called the Bears until they were shafted. I was about 10 years old them. I then switched codes (but not grounds, yes Jim I like NSO) and followed Northern Spirit. So I am well trained in following losers.
My frustrations stem from decisions and the way the way things are run, some in the Club, but mostly in Australian Football in general and specifically the A-league to the point where I see less chance now of waking the "Sleeping Giant" than anytime since the A-League started.
There are many positives especially in the way our Club is approaching the lack of an owner with billions to waste by bringing on you footballers. It is survival for the Club but must happen in other clubs as well for our national teams to be competitive in the long term.
Unfortunately without a lot of luck, continuing dedication and especially a lot of nurture from the parent organisation I see it will be extremely difficult for our Club to survive to bring this scheme to fruition. There is no way we will survive if in the future we go back to the minimal survival funding of the past.
I can see I will have to list the issues to explain my frustrations and ultimately fears for the future.
There is no one thing, it is a combination of many, some big some small, but when I put them altogether I see a fairly depressing downward spiral (again) of the professional game in this country.
I am still loathe to do this as I do not wish anybody to follow me on this path.
Maybe it would be for the best, in order that my observations can be shot down by others here.
I am not going anywhere soon and probably a vigorous discussion could take place and who knows someone may read it who has the ability to fix things.
The thing that worries me most is that I am the optimist on this forum. Things must be bad.